” my running star…’

Remember….

Once again…

When we’re dance….near the river….

I never understand….

why you like bethoven with his serenade …

And so happy with
uncle Sinatra “

Moon

River

”

But both of us…..dance…slowly…..

In silent…

just like we own the world in our tiny fingers…..

And make us “a couple”……

Imagine…..

Once again…

When we’re lying…..near the beach…

You never understand…..

why I like coldplay…..and simple plan…..

And so happy with “My chemical Romance”

But both of us…….singing…..slowly…..

In the silent…….

just like we will live……in this stupid world….forever….

And make us…..”a couple”…..

But one thing….that will always be mine……..

Its you…..

Till the end……

*To my Rey of Light"
its always you and me……

as a "sastra book reader’…..
i ve ever read some kind of short stories…..which ….i found this sentence inside….
" kesetiaan itu adalah pengingkaran dari suatu keinginan"….
first….i never know what this sentence means…..
but then…..when i am with you…
i found many fact….that point this view…
while i want somethin sooo….madly…..i just realized that i am stick in to somethin that "forbid" me to want it….
i feel really annoying by this….
but then….with you…
i can face this as " love "……(though i dont understand much)….
and slowly consider this sentence as "sacrifice ‘…..to someone ….who is a part of me…
i know …you will never see what i am doin here now…….
but just wanna tell you…."i still love you" ..and i ’still sacrifice" for you….
and like that sentence…..i always try to stop everything that i want……because…i am still loyal…..
to you……
the one……who ever posses my heart…..
and i know…..you trust me…..
because you know me……
till the very small things of me….
here….in the deep coldest night ever…..without you…..
honestly….i make my confession……i might like someone…..but like usual my love…..
it will never assist more than 3 days…..
because ……
if i love someone it will last long….till the end of my life….
and…..
it must be you…….
if i will fall again in my second life….its gotta be you….
and always you…..

i never know….why this stupid mobile cant sent any sms’s to my dear B in slovenia……
whats wrong with this card anyway????
and…i dont wannna use two mobile number….looks like i am a real…
"busy but nowhere" ladies…..
feel missing sometimes….when i was about to tell somethin that cruising in my cruel life…
and feel guilty when i cant say "thanks" while i receive this cute France tshirt from far way….
maybe i will think to have two or three mobile (like people do now ya…)

Slepless i listen…
to the surge and drone….

and drifting roar…of the town undertone….

till through quiet falling rain….

i hear the bells tolling and chiming…
their brief tune….
that tell days midnight end….

and from the days that over….
no flashes of delight i can recover…
and in my lonelyness…..
longing for you….
i am alive….
only that…
i may find you…
at the end..

Good morning….
though still in my bed….
my thought goes to you….
My immortal beloved….
Now and then joyfully…..then sadly….
Waiting to learn….whether or not….fate will hear us….
I can live wholly with you or not at all…
I am resolved to wonder…
so long away from you…..
Untill i can fly to your arms…
And say that i am really at home…
send my soul enwrapped with you…
in the land of spirit….yes..happily it must be soo…
You will be the more resolved….
Since you know my fidelity….
To you…
No one can ever again….
Posses my heart…
None…
never….
ever thine…
ever mine…
Ever for each other…

Think of me….
think of me fondly….
when we ve said good bye…
remember me…once in a while….
Please promise me you ll try..when you find that, once again…
you long to take your heart back and free…
if you ever find a moment …spare a tought of me…
we never said our love was green….
or as unchanging as the sea….
But if you can still remember…
stop and think of me….
think of the things we ve shared and seen….
Dont think about the think…
which might have been….
Think of me…think of me silent and resigned….
Imagine me..trying hard….to put you out of my mind….
recall thoose days…looking back on all those times…
Think of the things we ll never do…
There will never be a day….
When i wont think of you…